Saturday, August 4, 2012

Accidental mom!

I never intended to be a mom to so many kids. I will be honest, I hadn't even considered whether I wanted to be a mother before I got pregnant. Don't get me wrong, the minute I learned about my daughter's existence, I wanted her. I just hadn't ever thought about that decision before fate made it for me.

Little did I know that she was the beginning of this life.

She was a whole lot of fun as a toddler. The kind of fun where you question on a daily basis whether you want more children! LOL When she moved past the toddler years and started kindergarten my ex and I decided it was time to add in that little boy we had been talking about for a while. Regular readers know how that ended up, but in case you are a new reader, I'll explain. ;)

I found out I was pregnant and was quite happy about it! I knew something was different though, so I saw the doctor pretty early in the pregnancy. We listened to the heart beat and she said everything had sounded great. She listened to my concerns and said that we would get an ultrasound to check everything out but she was sure everything was fine. Fast forward to the ultrasound tech telling me how excited she was because she had never found triplets before! My doctor was so shocked she came to the ultrasound building in the middle of the day so she could see for herself!

When the triplets were 4 or so, after their father and I had mutually agreed that we didn't belong together, I began seeing my current husband. He brought along his two amazingly awesome kids which brought the total to six children!

So when I was again surprised last year to learn that my youngest was coming, it was a little scary! I already had six! Of course, there was never a question of if he would join the family, just HOW. LOL

So I guess I am an accidental mother. People ask me all the time if I am done. I usually answer "probably." I think our family is complete, and we do our best to prevent further members, but what I've learned so far is that if it is meant to be then there isn't a whole lot I can do about it!

Some women with large families made this choice at some point in their lives, hopefully with the help of their husbands! I guess I never actually made the choice. It just sort of fell into my lap, like I'd won the lottery. In the last nine years I went from one child to seven!

I guess my point is this: I'm not sure what the hell I am doing!

I'm not organized the way that someone with seven kids should be. School notes get lost, shoes get lost, things go unnoticed. Today, for example I didn't notice that Braydon was wearing his pants backwards until about six this evening. Things like this happen all the time.

But I try every single day to be the best mother than I can be to these kids of mine. I try to teach them right from wrong and to own up to their mistakes and try to be better next time. I make mistakes. I hurt their feelings. I forget what they tell me. I mix Josh and Eric up all the time. But I desperately love them, and my world wouldn't be complete if any single one of them were missing from it.

I think that means I am being the best mom that I can be.

Isn't that the point?

Thanks for reading!